Where Do We Begin (The Rubble or Our Sins?) Masterpost

[dime_liora]

Title: Where Do We Begin (The Rubble or Our Sins?)
Author: dimeliora
Wordcount: 40,179
Rating: NC-17
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, Bobby, OFC, OFC
Pairing(s): Sam/Dean, OFC/OFC
Warning(s): Serious Angst With a Happy Ending, Violence, Dubious Consent of the Amnesia Variety
Beta(s): The endlessly amazing sammichgirl. Any remaining mistakes are mine.
Artist: clex_monkie89
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, but my incredibly poor grasp of character and plot creation did make some original stuff in here.
Summary: AU post season one. He wakes in a hospital, missing a limb and all of his memories. They tell him he is Dean Hunt. That his sister died in the accident that claimed his leg. From there he rebuilds with the help of his quirky lesbian neighbors and a homeless drifter named Sam.
Art Masterpost:

Chapter 1    |      Chapter 2     |       Chapter 3     |     Chapter 4     |     Epilogue

Notes and Acknowledgments:
This was not a labor of love. This was a labor of extreme pain. I'm gonna be honest with you, I get a lot of comments about how I write sad things. Very sad things with happy endings. Well, none of that stuff ever made me really sad. This did. It has my typical obsession with happy endings firmly inserted, but the journey babies...the journey. It is a hard journey. If you decide to go on it I will be enormously grateful, if you don't I don't blame you. I grew to love this, but I think I fear it a little too if that makes any sense at all.

I have a lot of people to thank. Sam Cooke for writing "A Change is Gonna Come", because this wouldn't exist without that. Chat, oh Chat, how you spurred me on with writing battles. cherie_morte for saying, this is not a direct quote, "Amnesia fic is super fun" and then probably laughing her ass off. Also, for giving me the go ahead on a specific moment in here that I'm still not sure should be in here. HA HA did I warn you for angst already? clex_monkie89 made the summary something useful, did a crapton of cheerleading, and called art dibs which was really ego-boosting, oh my god.

And then, of course, more than anyone ever, sammichgirl, without whom nothing would ever get written and I would sit in an indecisive puddle murmuring to myself about out of character characters and the abundance of unnecessary curse words. Seriously wife, you cannot do wrong, and I love you so much.

Also, Bastille, I am on to you and I know the album Bad Blood is your love song to the Winchesters. You can't fool me. So the title is stolen from one of their odes, and the rest of their album played on loop with Sam Cooke. If you're looking for a soundtrack, that's it.

Comments

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[livejournal.livejournal.com]

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[abeautifullie3.livejournal.com]

Hi there. It's going to be awhile before I can - from the sounds of it - be a masochist and read this, but I was wondering if you might have a forthcoming PDF (or AO3 linkage) I can stash away for when I get the chance?

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1025195/chapters/2040803

I do now. ;)

[abeautifullie3.livejournal.com]

Sweet! Thank you! I've got it downloaded and stashed, and looking forward to giving it a read!

[thestarkat.livejournal.com]

Wow. You always leave me breathless with your stories and this was no exception. So much depth and emotion. I was so invested in the characters, wanting Dean to put the pieces back together but also not sure if he should because he had Sam in his new life. I love love love loved it. <3

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I'm so very very glad! This was a rough one, and it's so good to see people enjoying it! Thank you so much!!!!

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I sort of wish for more sex too! :D So glad you liked it and thanks for reading and reviewing!

[deansdirtybb.livejournal.com]

It took me waaay too long to get around to reading this. It was amazing! I made the mistake of starting it before I went to bed for the day before work...and I ended up not getting much sleep because I *had* to finish it. I loved broken Dean and Sam who couldn't resist poking at Dean's memories to bring him back. The ending both broke my heart and made me so happy. I loved every second and am once again in awe of your amazing talent. Thanks for sharing this one!

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. I really did like this one, and I wanted it to work the way it did in my head and I'm not sure it did. But I am so very very glad you liked it, and as always, am only partially sorry for your sleep deprivation. ;)

Thank you so much!! Sorry this reply took so long!!

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

I'm working my way through the bookmark folder of Wincest BB and SDMB combined. SO EXCITED to be at yours!!!! *wriggles of delight!*

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I'm so excited you're excited!!!! Sorry this reply took so long!!