This Goddamn Fandom, How I Love It

[dime_liora]

I was in the Harry Potter fandom a long time ago. I mean I still am, sort of, but I don't write for it anymore. No time.

There's a load of things I've learned about the SPN fandom in my time in it. In the end it's like a family, where we fight about stupid shit and then something threatens us and suddenly it's all hands on deck to go at it. I've seen posts about charities the fandom supports, things the cast have done that other casts would never consider, and most importantly I've been on the receiving end of support and kindness from complete strangers.

Bear with me, I have a point but I'm a little nostalgic and emotional right now as I prepare for my sixth straight night of 11-7 work.

My first story on here roxymissrose took a chance on something with no cut, header, or summary and then gave me invaluable advice to both getting more comments and making my nonsense fall in line with etiquette. My first commenter ever I'm pretty sure, and if not I've decided to retcon history that way. :)

deansdirtybb has been a joy to discuss all things Dean with, and I cannot express how much I've loved having someone who agrees with all my myriad ramblings about what works and what doesn't.

Countless others have been kind enough to take the time to comment, respond, offer support and advice, and generally puff up my ego until I'm sure I'm impossible to be around.

But now, that point I promised, sammichgirl who cajoled me into making Lost Time public, has pushed me into crossing boundaries and writing things I never thought I would and then honestly enjoyed exploring, and just generally been a damn fine friend and an awesome example of humanity. Sammich, the Shoe in Team Shoe, Bitch!, has gone through a ridiculous amount of hand-holding to get me to agree to go to the SPN con in May 2014. Washington, D.C. I will be taking a picture with Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki. I hope I'll have enough money left over to take one with Richard Speight Jr. as well. I will attempt to break my crazy no-touching issues to try to at least shake hands with them. Most importantly I will be enclosed in a space with a large number of people who share my predilections. Which is like three or four of my biggest phobias in one place. If I can make eye contact without thinking of all the times I've written these men naked and fucking each other it'll be a miracle, but I'm gonna try.

Most importantly I have a very strict policy of keeping this life very separate from my real one. So here's the thing, if you're going, and you'd like to meet up, I am totally down. The biggest group of buddies we can get is what we should shoot for I think, because while being a part of this community electronically is awesome it would be even more awesome to see some of you in person and gush about our love and perversions.

I'm going to con. Let the hyperventilation begin.

Comments

[deansdirtybb.livejournal.com]

Yay!!!!!!! I'm so excited you're going - aaannnd, I'll be there too :D We can totally swoon over Jensen together, I'm telling you, even better in person - there just aren't words for the pretty.

Also, it has totally been my pleasure to ramble about all things Dean with you. Seriously, you've been my oasis in a land where I am constantly surrounded my Sam!girls. I mean I love my Sam!girls, don't get me wrong, but it is so great to have a like-mind :)


p.s. You are totally right about this fandom, it is amazing and has totally spoiled me.

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

Jensen swooning! What what!

This is gonna be awesome.

[deansdirtybb.livejournal.com]

It is, it is! And it's a whole stinkin year away -grrrr. Have I ever told you how I feel about the waiting? Ask sammich, I'm not the best at patience.

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

You're so brave!!! I did one con and I'm glad I did but it's not going to happen again. Issues! *handflaily movement*

I'm totally your first commenter! Even if I wasn't, I was. *GRIN*

I love the way you write! God knows I owe you many comments, but you should know that I love your brain. :)

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

Issues? Bad issues? What kind of issues?

I just checked, and no ret-conning necessary you popped my cherry. :D

Also, aw shucks and thanks. I like your brain too. :D

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Crowds, crowds, can't do them! Actually, I'm better than I used to be. Also, I have an embarrassment squick five miles wide and it's so easily triggered.

I'm proud to know that I popped your cherry. I'm also leaning over my keyboard snortling and giggling because my inner twelve year old is in charge. :D

[sammichgirl]

I hate calling you the Bitch in Team Shoe, Bitch! because you're anything but...so you're my Decky. Yep. It stuck and no turning back now.

I am SO PROUD of you for crossing boundaries and exploring the wide wondrous world in our fandom - among other things. :p You're truly a gifted writer, and how spoiled am I to read most things first or get a glimpse behind the madness.

You are going to melt like butter for Richard. It's a Shoe guarantee. J2 might be intimidating because...pretty and well, SAM AND DEAN, but Richard...he's extremely open and inviting.

So I will hold your hand (figuratively unless you grab on and that's ok too) as we battle inner demons on our quest for con fun!

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I'm foreseeing grabbing. Also panicking, and lamppost stiffness combined with silence and a lack of blinking.

That's if I get out of the room.

[xsickobsession.livejournal.com]

I wish you a great Con, girl! I've been to jib3 and jib4 and I'm going to jib5 next year and I can assure you, once you start, it's very, very difficult to not keep going :D You'll have the most wonderful time, and Jared, Jensen and all the others are totally amazing and down to Earth, and they'll make you feel so comfortable, I promise. Not only you will shake their hands, if you're "brave" enough, you'll get a hug! I say brave because when you'll se them, your brain will go bye bye lol I got mine from Jared, Matt Cohen and Ty Olsson and two times from Misha (I'm working on the Jensen's one, he's usually shy at european cons, idk why, but this year he hugged EVERYONE at jib and I didn't have a picture with him...yeah, lucky me). Good luck for your first Con, I can't wait to read your opinion on the experience!
Hugs

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! That's so exciting! He may be more shy there, but of all the con videos I've seen JIBcon always has the best question and answer sessions. :)

I'm sure my thoughts will be mostly "Ohmygodohmygodohmygod" and keyboard smashes.

[stormcloude]

If I was rich, I'd spend my life going from con to con to con! \o/

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. If I was rich I'd be buying a gold ticket and every photo op available. All the time. And twice on Sundays. :D

[meesasometimes.livejournal.com]

I am so super excited for you!!!! You'll see even a midst that crowd you'll feel like "ooooo these are my people" (mostly) and you'll have a great time, the best time ever, in fact I'm now thinking all the thinking thoughts about going. God I miss con. Please never read my post about what a spazz I was at my first con, it will not serve you well. My second con I acted like a completely normal fan and was so successful in my goals. I like to focus on that one altho I had amazing times at both :) Meeting lj girls was the highlight of everything, they have been amazing, ALL of them, it's apparently a prerequisite.

I warn you, you will be so in love with Jensen Ackles when it's over you will not be able to go back to life as you knew it. You will forever be fixated on what it was like to have him shine on you (he makes his own light you know):P

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

I believe in Jensen Ackles and his light. I believe.

You should so go! We can meet up, and you can hang with Sammich and ddbb and I! We can drink and talk porn and show! YES!!

Also I can see your tattoo in real life and be all fangirly over it. :D

[meesasometimes.livejournal.com]

I am seriously thinking about it, I have family in DE so it wouldn't be that much of a travel if I was there and came down for a night. HMMMMMMM*think think think* that would just be so much fun, I would love to meet up with you :)

and my tattoo loves to be fangirled over! It's needy like that.

[meesasometimes.livejournal.com]

Holy crap, I just mentioned this to Wendy and she was all "I'd love to go, I've always wanted to go to DC." SCORE!!!!

I think I'll see you guys in DC:) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

So I just got off a really crappy 9 and half hour shift to these two comments, and my broken and pitiful impulse control let out this loud squeak before I started clapping. Luckily my husband is not home so there was no one to witness and mock me.

I might get to meet you and your wife! Awesome!!!